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The thread of hope....

The thread on my hand has been there for almost 2 years now, but it's now breaking apart...

I have never been a strong believer of rituals. I am not against it, but never really understood it either. I always wondered why people would tie threads around their hand. The significance of the thread has multitudes of reasons - warding off evil , keeping you at peace , to name a few.

My connect with this thread happened in 2011 when there was a 'havan' performed at home after Dad passed away. During the start of the 'havan' this thread was tied around my hand. Since I was not a strong believer in the rituals, I really did not bother around the reasons behind it. Yet, somehow, the emotions during that time made me draw my own reasoning and connect with this thread.

I tried to think of it as an eternal connect with Dad, something which will still keep him close to me. Whenever I felt low I used to look at this thread on my hand and a sense of calm prevailed, a feeling that someone is watching over me and things will end up in a positive way.

A year passed on and the thread was still there on my hand. The year 2012, there was another 'havan' performed and yet another thread tied on my hand. Somehow the threads on my hand now became a part of me. Unknowingly, I had formed a bond of trust with this thread.

Just before traveling to UK in early 2013, another bond of trust was added on my hand. I felt secured, felt empowered by this thread. It gave me enough strength to leave my family behind and carry on to a foreign land.

The past few weeks, I see this thread diminishing. It's on the verge of breaking. It feels really weird writing this up, but even though I never believed in this, I somehow don't want the thread to break. Last few days I have been trying hard for it not to break, keep rolling the thread together to make it stronger, however it is inevitable that the thread breaks. I don't want to loose the connect, I don't want to break this trust.

I am just going to remove this on my own before it breaks. Being of rationale thought, I know that I will make peace with the fact that the thread is no longer there on my hand....
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